Sometimes the words just fail me,
I don’t even know where to start.
It doesn’t look like good news she said, there is no beat from it’s heart.
I had heard of ectopic pregnancies, but surely that wouldn’t happen to me?
I lay there staring at my empty uterus, I was wrong, but how could this be?
The words just kept on buzzing, my tummy so empty, but how?
They had to remove my ovary, I just kept thinking, why me? Why now?
We already have our gorgeous girl, for that we will always be blessed.
Sometimes life doesn’t go our way, was this really all just a test?
The pain we feel I’m sure in time will heal, even though it’s something we’ve never known before.
Grieving what could have been for us, a future as a family of four.
But for now, in darkness the tears will flow, while I curl up in a tiny ball,
The stitches still new, the pain still raw, but I will heal after I pick myself back up from this fall.