In July 2022 my husband and I were delighted to find out that we were pregnant for the first time. We were incredibly excited, dreaming of what could be; booking scans, filling in pregnancy journals and preparing for our lives to change in the most magical way.
Sadly just one week after finding out that I was pregnant I experienced a huge bleed at home and called my midwife as I thought I’d miscarried. At A&E (accident and emergency) I was told that I was still pregnant and was booked in for a scan the following day. Sadly, they couldn’t see anything on my scan and it was treated as a ‘pregnancy of an unknown location’ for a further agonizing week, until the consultant decided as there still was no sign of a pregnancy on the scan, yet my hCG (hormone produced in pregnancy) levels were rising rapidly, an indication that something was wrong.
My heart sank. I still didn’t know until after surgery what had happened. I had to sign forms with six eventualities of what they might find. Sadly, I had an 8-9 week ectopic pregnancy growing in my left Fallopian tube which had ruptured. The surgeon said they’d caught it ‘just in time’ before I started to lose more blood which they also found in my abdomen.
We lost so much that day. Hope in my body, hope I would ever recover and hope in the healthcare system, that they didn’t spot the signs earlier. 1 year on, the future is brighter, and despite never forgetting the baby we lost, we’re ready to share our story and find hope for a rainbow baby 🌈
Sophie's Poem - What We Lost